thanks giving

thanksgiving. what to say about a holiday ware you eat so much you (A.fell like your about to give berth .) or (B.go to the hospital cuss you think you about to have a hart attack.)   my thanksgiving was feeling off i have working thanks giving for 5 years and this year they called me and told me i could stay home witch was awesome  one because i had a little hang over from the night before and two…..well there was no two i was just having a big head ace and hat waking up at 5 am.i sate up on my couch after they called me and did not no what to do with my self .my plan was supposed to be go to work ,eat works thanksgiving meal for free (witch i love),get driest at work and bolt up to my mothers / bobs house ware there was supposed to be two families i don't no and was supposed to help entrain witch i was not looking forward to dinging, i mean who wants to entrain wean all day you shoving food in you mouth and look like a fat caw that is going to give birth or have a heart attack?i will never no?so wish i could have just worn sweats and blankly stared at football will shoving food in my mouth but ow weal.  so the one family was very nice and the other person did not show up witch was sweet. hope that is not mean of me but ones again i did not want any one seeing my food baby and my have never eaten before in my life food habits.witch is just unhitching my jaw will throwing my head back and poring it in HA! I wish. the family was from Australia and the wife was telling my that it gets so hot out there they eat sea food not turkey witch seemed cool mix it up i guess rite? I found out my mothers husband bob makes some kick ass stuffing witch was cool but sense i did not work i went to moms early and my grams came up witch was nice to see her but pot mom,me & grams in one kitchen and try to cook thinks give LET ME TELL YOU IT DUSE NOT WORK! so it was a little crazy but that's haw it was nice as it was going to get.i love my family and all the weird bump and quirks cuss you got to be grateful for every time you got life fly's so fast shit I'm going to be 24 this year and stile feel 14 in so meant ways as point.so happy verry late thanks giving and apresheat what you got in life you big web world.

random tv watching

watching NCIS and is addicting to watch lol. I'm so brain dead with all this Holiday shit and sens i have no writing in a will i that i try and rite about siting and waiting to go out to night with my BF family.WOW! the car in the TV show on NCIS POPPED in to life and all mossed killed the chick with the black hair .there this creepy dude that's an ass hole and i think hes a bad guy in the TV show but how nose?hes got this reel bad ascent to witch is a lol annoying.and now to Marshal...............and we are back.the hum-v is loose in the city.love her big spiky nickles by the way.i wish i could tip that fast.every one has tattoos on hear i need a nether one STAT.this hum-v stooped in the woods that be crazy if the hum-v killed every one some how?ooww dude just punched annoying dude in the face the one with the bad accent HA.Way do White cotes make people look smart ? ooww hard weirds "smug" was used. every one in the office looks so calm and cosy hhhuumm. ooww some sex's is going on and the guy is warring a crazy person wrist band lol so cut cuss the chick shes banging pot it there cuss she like him ooww so sweet. and now a nether episode ? do i want to watch a nether on ? no i don't think so.lets see what alas is on shall we. oooooww ghost hunters in what it looks like a all rock casual. looks like theres Ben murder and swashed,glowing lites and some one yelling and chasing them out  spooky spooky. lites out!!! lets watch........OK there is suction in the house that makes the doors open and close.  ooww he hears singing and a chick heard a girl singing.wow some cool sy-fi stuff going on walling foot steps and singing .ok so i got to go now lol hope you injoyed my randum tv watching.

# of things and how nose

So things that are bothering me #1  you no In one of my blogs I talked about 
haw I loused my papers to getting my car painted. Well I found them and just 
as 
it doing there !!! Rely Alexis ! I found it will cleaning the APT. And went 
guess ware they ware? Just guess? In my Curtain!!! What the monkey Munchers 
wto 
move the curtain and "PoP" if falls out and not the lower part of the curtain ow 
took the stop&shop gift car and told them 
it was hers wen she just took it off the shelf AND they believed her and got 
moused of her Fing groceries for free. WTF why did I not thing of this? But yet 
a old lady beat me to it first!?!? Not saying I would do this but  really? GOSH
no it was hi up there. "P.s. Sarina says hi blog!"#2 this is random but wean guys dont cut there nails short. just had a guy help me look at camra and his nails wear so long bla!  but back to this wy must stuff jump I'n curtains?? Wy?# 3 just wait I'n line to pay for food I'n the 
crossers store and this women with her kentucky derby hat on makes this day the 
best time at the grocery store + she
DARN IT!! To day was a chill weird day one of my cats mayhem loves to jump up on 
the bars around the stars and she slipped on the towel I had draped over the bar 
t of her. This is the second time this has happened she's suck a silly cat i 
w
and she feel all the way down on my DVD case. She's ok justgot the shit scares 
o
uonder haw I could stop her from doing this ? Ok then this is my random as blog 

going. Ok so have a grate big web night ppl? 
 
at the grocery store as i wait for Kentucky derby hat women to finish up and get
P.S.computer is doing weird thing so dont mind the spasing.
 

REMEMBERING

my fingers hover over my computer key bored as i try to find the words. The words of haw to explain about a man i barley new. A man i cant rely talk about because of the laws at my work. But i feel i need to. I feel i need to talk about him and the experience i have had.The pain In my heart we all had that day as we ether sat there helplessly or wear siting over him doing compressions yelling his name asking if he wanted aware help or just to try to save him or not. The way this day happened i feel was a natural disaster as it went from hectic to progressively wears. As the blaring lowed Noyes signified that something was terribly rang.Every foot step running and aware hearts jumping just as fast to come upon what no person should have to see. As the people i work with started poshing there natural thoughts out of there heads and began doing what they wear trained to do.They worked trying everything they could the tension went on. Yelling out orders trying to find whatever these people needed as fast as we could run or think. Will i stand there hopelessly watching my help is needed to a norther person. For a moment i did not even now i was walking.for a moment every thing was normal,i was calm.As I'm speaking to the person i forget what is going on out side i posh all of it out and i site there smiling telling her everything is ok.Wen i get back they are trying something new as it gets quieter the tension drops slowly from the room as we all relies haw long its Ben.I look in the room at the peoples faces .It was something no one had to say. they had tyred everything they could and no response,but stile we hoped.In till i heard the words "we have to call it". Then silents as one voice was herd and nothing no talking no laughing just calm.the time of passing was sad. What do you do with all that Adrenalin now? All that hope? Ware are your feelings supposed to land after such a dramatic shock? no ware....you are numb for the first few moments i am told by some. God even nose if the people that do this stuff every day even have Any Emerson left?As the last women steps out it kills me as every emotion rips across her face.So badly i wanted to walk up and hug her and tel her you did everything you could its not your fault. But steeped back as i new she needed her space as every one dues after these things.I watched her holed in the tears and walk off the floor.ask i stood there it hit me this man was Gan i was never going to hear his voice again and hear him ask for my help or anyone Else's.i did not no what to do but do what i do wen i get upset was clean.So i took in a breath steeped in the room and looked at the floor of what looked like a tornado riped threw it like a bat out of hell.And started cleaning.As i was some one said my name near the corps and i snapped my head up as my eyes landed rite on him and all i could do was stare and walk forward. There was no crying,no freaking out and running out of the room.I wandered Wy?And it hit me haw Meany deceased people i have seen and felt weirdly calm.as i walked over and looked at what he looked like now. I could not believe all the different colors in his skin and took in the remands of what had happened and what had gan on.After the floor calmed dawn i had asked what had happened? What cased this pore man to passe in such a harebell way? The response i got was "something in side him exploded he had bleed to death".This was a shock cuss that was something you read about in medical book or hear about it in movies but no one gets to see it or experience this in real life and its a way no person should ever have to go.Every time something like this happens it is stored in my mind to remember the person the way they wear,the way they have touched me with such a blessing of knowing them and being in there lives for just a little will i feel honored.so i rite this in the memories or him and all of them i will come across in my life.
this was a memorise speech i guess you can call it.R.I.P ALWAYS ME

just shav it!

so I'm one very pissed of female at my own god dam self rite now to top off my very two weird  12hour night shift. ware do i even begin?!?! well it all started off this weekend with me working night and i don't do good wean my sleep time has changed. FUCK i don't do good period wen i have to wake up before 10am. I'm like a mean ass  version of shrek that no kid would want to play with. so to pot me on nights is like saying hey Alexis i feel like watching you squirm and then watching. i no it sick just plane sick. but then to top it off i forget to do a Vidal thing and now look like even a bigger  blond at work. (no harm to the blonds ) and then had to do it all over again the next night. OW but i showed them i drank ssssoooo much coffee i could have rant the Boston Marathon and then some AH! :) AND left on time to!! what now work!! but today...ow today,today,today i shake my head to how i did today. woke up with every bone kicking may ass,tripped over my cat black how I'm sore aware is out to kill me in a nice way tho. got to work on time witch was good BUT THEN DOM! DOM! DOM! i came home to do the paper work on my car and they wear Gan!!!!! EK yes i no. all of it just gan "ow the pain" so now i have zip, Nada, zero of it witch means i will not be getting back the peed cash for the dealer ship. all because my brain likes to go to lunch at random times in my life with out me knowing it. i mean all i ask for is may be a sticky note saying "5min brake be back later" or something! but no my mind hates me and sites up there in my skull and laughs ,  pointing at the evil tricks it plays on me. well thanks a lot brain for more bull shit in my life :). So now after iv flipped over every paper, Pen,book,chair,table,coach,Lief,shoe,cat and dust bunny i ms.medium have given up. so i spent my gloom spoiling my fish with going and buying some more fish food and went to the grocery store to get the things i need for a pie that i will make for my boyfriends family and mine. witch i will not be joining cuss my evil mind thinks its a good idea to work thanksgiving. i guess its beater then working x-miss that would be not fun. just to fill you in on Way i have to work one or the other its cuss i work at a hospital as a living breathing vampire and also hospitals don't rest for holidays or anyone. yes i will die if you stake me in the hear and will be mad if you splash holey water in my face(these are some of the every day questions i get at work ) so this is a weird weird blog and i don't no ware to go from hear? p.s. sorry if my ritghing seams choppy i am exacted and have the little animation max&marry stuck in my head and am finding my self speaking haw max rote in his letters? if you have not seen the movie i tel you , you should. it is a little weird and different but i found it moving in a weird type of way. its haw unfortunately haw life some times rely is. so as i sit hear in my apt. all by my lonesome and am finding nothing Else to say. i say this even wen it hearts to smile deal with it and teal that bad thing or bad day to shav it. it will make you feel better even wen people think your crazy and talking to no one just do it.
so ones again have a grate big beautiful evening you big web of a thing and shav it. 

mitsu-bite my ass

so the Begining of last week starting on Monday i brought the bat-mo-Bel  (Mitsubishi eclipse 2001) in for a hole new paint job. why you ask? well long story short the Mitsubishi dealer ship Fudged up big time on ALL the 2001 black Mitsubishi eclipse paint jobs so my bat-mo-Bel went from a sexy black to a god for sicken White in under 2years and iv had this car for 4 YEARS PEOPLE 4! and be for i got the leader in the mail telling me what was going on with my car i was this close (-) to sewing my work. you ask why? well cuss I'm at my work 24/7 and i work mostly evenings and have to park in this old cement parking lot ware wen it rains calcium water drops get on your car and can ruined the pain job. but that means it would have to rain for 3 weeks strata or more to ruin a good pain gob. So in the leider i find out that one person was having this problem and was noticing it happening on uthere cars so he or she brat her problem to the dealer shep and some haw i came out to being this huge case. witch led to this long anoying proses of paper working and coping and BAL! BLA! BLA! and at the end of all the BS  i only get $300 out of the asshole wen the bill was $1200 and that SUCKS BALL SO THANK YOU MITSUBISHI DEALERS !!!  but now i am happy to say after coming out broke i get one very sexy& sleek bat-mo-bel :)

so at the end of the day as long as you have a roof over your head & happy people around you and your very sexy bat-mo-bel life is good even if broke.till next time big wed have fun be happy.

Zombeis!!!!!!

So Iv started watching "the walking dead" on AMC witch I am very excited about maybe a little to much because it was originally a comic book ( witch is so cool) witch I remember a friend of mine reading at one of the meany schools I was attending.you can't tell me making a comic book to a kick ass tv show not cool RITH! That's what I'm saying :-).so the first tv show premier was on Halloween witch was the best time I that to air it.  The second was this passing  Sunday and it was good as well and am now waiting for the 3rd show witch again is this Sunday and I'm SO MADE cuss I will be working a 7p-7a witch is one big old BLA!maybe I can ask my boss to see if the hospital will get AMC so I can watch it on my brake??? But that question mite be fallowed by a psych evaluate-shin and I mite get to mutch of a kick out of that and a kick in the head by family and friends SO let's not do that. (p.s. Just kidding promise I'm a little sane)and also the make-up and special affects are so cool and would love to Learn haw to do all of that SO COOL!so no about my conspiracy theory about zombies and haw I am 100% shore if the weird out brake of the living dead start it will start hear at this hospital on this floor and I would be working like always and try and draw the living deads blood and FUG NUGGETS I BE THE LUCKY ONE TO GET BIT!!!!! >:-/ not happy about this threy but i no it will be so I will read as meany "haw to survive the world of zombies 1,2 &3" and cross my fingers. I hope you all do the same.(HA! I'm Fing crazy I no) but I have fun some times thinking about all this stuff and have tolled all of the staff member I work with about my theory  WITCH was not probely the best idea Iv dun cuss some people just have no sense of hummer and thing I'm nuts ones again.

ow what a Frisatsun

This describes my weekend Friday,Saturday AND Sunday. I'm calling it the (frisatsun) :) i got to chill with my casein Ginny all weekend who i don't rely get to see very Afton and kicks ass to be with after a shitastick day at work "sarcasm for it sucked ." toured Lana around faneuil hall and ate at dicks last resort ware the waitress had a ball of a time with her and i had fun watching her ware a paper hat that said "as seen on girls Gan wiled" because she had a LA license lol loved it. and ate some kick ass fried shrimp yum yum yummy they wear.went to a "MASTERY BAR" cuss i was not paying attention :-/ (sorry to people reading)but funny thing AT this bar was as soon as we walked in"Mr.drunkass" cums rite over and starts acting like he's important shit & starts saying he can speak Fing french WELL MR.DRUNKASS did not no is my cousin Ginny KICKS ASS at the french she new and saved use. (GO GINNY WOOT!) but Mr.drunkass did not get the hint and ended up making a complete fool of him self(sore Mr.drunkass we shall remember you.)  then Saturday i brat the girls with me .Ware we headed to Harvard square and Ginny,Lana,molly,Bryn and me all had a Fing kick ass of a time.we took pitchers at the first place but cant remember the name cuss I'm a space case "and have Bean there like 10 time go figer right?" cool thing about this place was all the shots wear named after old cool musicians like bob Marley & Janis Joplin. I do remember the second places name :) the"RED LINE" or "THE RED LINE" who nose "roll of the eyes" ware there was some kick ass old school R&B/hip-hop/rap going on and let me tel you eye was LOVING IT!!! but i do wish it was a little less packet. so in stead of wiggling  i could brake a move on some people "even tho I'm not shore what i rely mean by that?"i guess it would be a random Advent like a (freak of god) or something? So we had aware beers and left to mingle Elle's ware AND ended up at king Kong's  in Harvard square as well ,you can see we staid in the same area "thank god i would of gotten lost  jk " SO ENE WAYS king Kong was cool not as packed just sum ass holes poshing threw and one very sharp elbow on witch i yelled at the owner of  :) "yes I'm pawed i did so 2" BUT  ene way as i was saying every one was having fun and ended going up stares ware there was dancing witch was rely fun , so at the end of the night we  meat some nice ppl and had a grate time with some awesome Friends & family. so wen you have the chains DANCE! (i don't no it rimed OK lol) from this crazy/tired girl blog you later big web world & goodnight.
P.S. Just relized i forgot about sunday but im exhausted and with blog about it tomarrow. 

Don't Dance & Cook

sitting hear waiting for my cousin Ginny and Lana and "POP" Thoth i tel absolutely non of you about what happened after i scared my self shittles out of sleep. i puled my self off the couch and that i be the best little Sheff this the world has ever seen "even tho i am known for blowing up microwaves and bowling water :-/ but HEY what can i do with  two grate cooks back at home there has to be someone how  can burn water rite??? so anyway i decided to make "potato soup"  getting everything out and chapping very thing nicely and brilliantly thought to my self lets pot some music in this chopping beet!! So i pop my iPhone on the dack and start jamming to Whitney Houston or something ? well anyway i started dancing will i was jamming and well maybe 5-10 sec after i feel the lovely sharp blade come rite down on my Thom WWWOOO-WWWEEE!  i can tel you rith now i don't think iv moved my hand so fast before in my life "actually that's a lie i have at work " but anyway even tho it was a little cut the Fing thing would not stop bleeding like GOD DAM!! it was like my Thom was the mossed dramatic Thom you have ever meat in your life being like OOOWWW GGGOOODDD IV BEN HIT !! THE WORLD IS OVER AS WE NO IT!!! THERE IS NO GOING ON !! SAVE YOU SELF GO ON WITH OUT ME!! }:-\ and it only like a small paper cut. silly Thom! Way do i have to have the random dramatic Thom??? but back to me storey SO i had to keep cooking no way a dramatic Thom would stop me OW NO! so i rapt it up and squeezed it with my fingers on my hand. can i tel you i made the best god dam potato soup ever :) ow ya i did. and just so you don't think I'm ling to ya I'm eating it rith now. (pitcher on the top rite) So i guess the morel of my storey is "DON'T DANCE AND CUT". witch i will find my self probably doing next week ow well i will keep trying.so in till next time cook even if you bern down the house and just keep laughing about it all. have a good day big ass web see you soon.

random work stuff

so i have not written in a little, its because  haw brain dead i get wen i get out of work "sometimes", i mean i feel asleep siting up on my coach last night for 3 hours and got scared and pretty shore i screamed by a txt on my cell can you say "embarrassing" & I'm parity shore I'm going to need hip sugary by the age of 40 "not cool". And so you no what I'm talking about "whoever is reading" i work at a hospital running around, drawing blood, answering call lites, helping peasants & Rn's, heart EKG's I'm surprised me and the Rn's don't have the best god dam body's on the block OW and not saying we don't just saying that is haw much running around we do like GOD DAM MAN!!!! for reel!  for reel!! i should cut off my legs and get motorised wheels in stead. i work 40 hours witch is the norm for a 23 female on her own. but the crazy hours some times get to ya like for Einsteins Monday i worked 3pm-11pm but then the next day there mite be a 12 hour night shift with would be 7pm-7am and i like my sleep OK so i get very cranky on the night shifts.but i love helping these sick people even if some times they feel like throwing shit at you or calling you a bitch and DON'T EVEN ASK ME Way i do it if I'm not going to be a RN or Dr. cause rely i have no Fing clew maybe i like the environment or the abuse? god nose ?even sometimes i want to go into my bosses office and say that's it or just open up to her about every thing BUT i don't  no my boss that well and she would probably think i was more crazier then she all reedy thinks i am HA! that's OK cause every one thinks there is something seriously wrong with me :) me i do not see it? ow well.but i can say is i feel like working hear has rounded me i feel like i have got en to no every tip of crazy person, normal person there is in Boston or MA.so maybe one day ill foggier it out may be ill pick a grate job that i hart dingily love head over heals for but for rite now is the cold reality the world SSSUUUCCCKKKSSS BALLS!! and i need health enshrines and the good old green stuff called money and sens doing art makes shit for money and every thing Elle's i would love to do i am at the hospital living a American dream they call it or used to at lest. so in till next time to a norther random ass blog good night and fare well web world.